16 weeks

So, clearly I suck at updating a blog weekly. I've just been too freakin busy lately!! School started up earlier this month, and I'm already pretty overwhelmed. I'm starting to wonder if it was a terrible idea to attempt baby, school, and full-time work! If it proves too difficult, I might end up taking a semester off to retain my sanity and spend more time with the bebe. I would hate to be an absentee mom those first 4 months. However, I do have an exceedingly helpful and wonderful husband who I'm sure would keep me from losing too many marbles.

I can't believe I'm 4 months already!! And yet, there is so far to go!! We still don't know what tadpole is. :( I have a checkup on Friday, and then it's 4 more weeks until I can put a gender on the poor thing. It's getting harder to find gender-neutral clothing and decorations. I bought a super cute sparkly robot print at Hobby Lobby last week, and I think once we find out the gender we are going to design a decal for one of the walls. Would hate to have a boy astronaut if it's a girl! :D I've started to have a lot more energy than last month, but the physical stuff still sucks. My tension headaches aren't helped by the stress at work or with school, so I've been suffering a bit with those. I've started to really *feel* the pregnancy. It's awkward to bend down or stand up suddenly, and I find my belly getting in my way :p The hunger is so-so, but I'm still pigging out when I want to. Deal with it, people.

I have to say, the hardest part of being pregnant has to be the mental aspects of it. I've had anxiety and depression on and off since I was a teenager, and man, are they ramping up big time with this baby. I worry about everything, I cry over nothing, and I snap easily. It's been a lot harder to deal with little issues, and I can tell my lovely hourly mood swings are back full force. It's been very hard to deal with, and I'm hoping to find some ways to cope so that I can get through the next 6 months :p

That all being said, I WANT THE BABY HERE NOWWW. I want to read it books and play with it and watch it smile at me and I'm even excited for the middle of the night crap. I just want the baby to be done cooking and here for us to love!